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The name is ELIE. Pronounced similar to Alley but I don't live in alleys and neither could I be found there.

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Saturday, July 2, 2011

Decision making..

How to decide something that's really correct? or make everyone happy? I'm really lacking of this skill. Can somebody guide me? I don't even have a clue on my life now. Recently i found that I have completely lost focus. I'm doing things might ruin my life. I don't even feel like working anymore. Where's that passion I had when I first came in? I really don't know. I can say it out loud that I'm actually hating my workplace. I hate the people I work with. Malays are brainless and selfish two-legged mammals.. I think I need not say more. End of Story.

♥It's not the Last Farewell

6:55 PM

Sunday, May 22, 2011

These days, it's hard for me to figure out what i want in life anymore. Everything used to just fall in place at the right time and at the right way. I just realize adulthood is a very huge step which i don't have enough courage to step into.

Compared to certain people i may be considered lucky to be what i am now. I have a job that pays not much but enough for me to enjoy life. A loving family which i can go to when i have troubles though they are far away from me. But~~ i'm lacking of friends by my side. They have their own life now, and so far that i don't even dare to contact them anymore. I miss the college times when i can just knock on their door and hang out in their room, chatting.

Recently this guy came into my life. He kinda make feel happy and comfortable whenever he's around. He's really not what i wanted but he just make things seem right. Sometimes i wonder if I'm actually falling for him or i just wanted a companion to fill in my loneliness. He's totally serious and i'm still stuck here thinking what i want. I feel it's not fair to him but..........

Please tell me what to do..

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6:57 PM

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Hmm, lazy sunday afternoon..no place to go, with nothing to do.. Lazying around in my new crib.. Feels like heaven.. Life is just getting better that i don't have any shit to ditch here anymore..(oops!! sorry for the inappropriate language)..

Let's hope this happiness lasts long enough cause I'm seriously exhausted from the past..Getting more afternoon naps.. Chow folks~~Peace......

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1:39 PM

Thursday, April 21, 2011

People always say "Too much thinking makes me headache".. i finally have a real life experience.. Thinking about work?? Nope.. Family?? They are all safe & sound.. Money?? I have enough to spend.. Love?? Bingo!!

Am I in love?? Unfortunately still on the look out for Mr Right..But here comes the juicy part..This guy came out of nowhere & says he's totally into me..Sadly I don't have any feelings of that kind for him..He's just a colleague & a friend to me.. "Nak try tak??" And so we tried on 1 date..I tot it was suppose to be just a simple dinner & nothing more..Then, diberi betis nak paha..Guys will always be guys..He menggatal..touched places that shouldn't be touched, do some things that should not have been done.. Apa lagi..He got rejected!!! Worst reason he even give was " I tak rasa apa yang saya buat over sangat pun..biasa la tu" Biasa your head!!! I feel like chopping his hands off & maybe drown him in the Niagara Falls..

Some more info to support why he shouldn't have done this is he's a malay..I'm not being racist..Aren't they suppose to be more "respective" of the opposite gender?

Help~~~

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10:33 AM

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Finally get to have a good night's sleep after a week of on call.. Chest reopens~~~ Emergency CABG... Urgh!!! im totally drained out.. The worst thing was i was called back when i just reached my doorstep.. Another chest reopen?? NOPE!! A good looking but obnoxious surgeon wanted a suprapubic catheter. There I go back to OT just to get that thingy for him. The next day, emergency CABG by a very unpleasant to work lady.. your ears will get burned just by listening to her. She really has a mouth of a chicken ass!! AND Definitely NO.. I'm NOT getting paid for my on-call because im just tagging..

see this antique?? cant believe that pager still exist in this century.. This is what keeps me awake almost every night..

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9:18 PM

Monday, February 28, 2011

The day has come.. Super Duper Happy!!! Finally get fully paid & of course being able to claim overtime..Woots~~ after 6 months of gruesome training, i finally realise working in OT is not that bad afterall.. the staff & surgeons may be a pain in the *** but there's something new everyday..

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8:02 PM

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Long blogging Hiatus???

i'm finally back to update a bit.. thanks to the MC i got today due to a severe URTI..

It's about 3 months since i've started my career..All i can say is Too Much Work & NO Rest..

And this is basically what i'm dealing with everyday..

And of course.. CONVOCATION photos.. Only dad n aunty Jenn manage to attend.. Lex n Jonas couldnt make it..

I miss u guys so so much..Dont knpw when we can meet again~~

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3:09 PM

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Orientation is over and i'm finally a Registered Nurse..Just when i'm getting comfy with the environment, the most unexpected department allocation struck me.. I'm sent to the Operation Theatre.. Lost myself for awhile and when i got to my senses i managed to nod & smiled at the Nursing GM.. Should i be jumping and celebrating???? all kinds of thoughts flashed through my mind..

Anyway, it's already Day 2 in OT today..the environment is a bit eery and of course super duper freezing cold (18°C) .. The Sister is very strict & i actually think she's capable of ripping my head off if i made any mistakes..Gruesome~~~~

I feel totally lost in the huge OT...Can i cope?? it's as if what i learnt for the pass 3 years is nothing but a particle of dust..Gotta start from beginning like a baby learning to crawl..

Will try to update often if i have the time...cant wait to actually scrub for a case..

Labels: life, nursing, OT, work

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8:27 PM

Friday, July 30, 2010

Hello netizens!!!!

im glad to be back in the CyberWorld..

moving into a new house after finishing college left me with no internet..NO INTERNET means literally handicap to me..
*ps : im actually having to blog from the National Library which is "strategically" located opposite IJN..hahaha..

Basically i'm having a Major transition from student to working life..luckily we'll be having like a month long orientation..So, i can still sit back & relax a bit..hehe.. but getting to know more of my work place makes me feel even more scared to start my career process..So far the nurses seem to be quite lovable but im not sure if this impression will stay until i step into the ward.. The doctors...or should i say doctor, since i have only accounted one, however show a strict & scary manner to me..

Anyway, hope to have internet access a soon as possible and get in touch with the world out there again..

Toodles~~~

Labels: life, random, work

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1:31 PM

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

HAPPY HAPPY NURSE's DAY!!!

Celebrated on this very day every year in conjuction with Florence's Nightingale's anniversary.. To be honest i didn't know it was today until the girls start wishing each other.. Hmm, am i a lousy nurse(well, not quite a nurse yet) for not knowing?? haha

Anyway, i'm really happy, happy..we're now down to 42 days or less to LJM(the long awaited gruesome exam).. Damn, can't imagine how i wasted 3 years of my youth here..I remembered coming here as blur as ever not knowing what nursing really is.. my mind was just to get away from home and this was the only shot i had.. Here I am today waiting to become a nurse and proudly saying that i actually grown to like what im doing...

Labels: life, nursing, random

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9:46 PM

Friday, April 30, 2010

Finally back home in Sarawak after the gruesome battle with the 100 MCQs.. Totally exhausted i long for the long awaited break to be chilling out at home.. However i did a bit if detour this time to MYY for 2days as ordered by my dad to kinda mingle with his new other half's family.. Oh man, Giv me a BRREAKKKKKKkkkkkkk~~~ i was with them literally 24/7, 3 meals a day and shopping together.. the best time i had in MYY was when we got back to the hotel for the night!!! Yes, I need the sleep so much.... Anyway, So SO so Sorry Miss J.. i just cant do this yet.. dont expect me to be close to you without you showing any effort.. sticking to my dad and sort of having him as yours is not a good step of wanting to be a family.. Why should we try to fit in your family when you are not doing the same to fit in ours???? Worst, you think you can come to my graduation just like that??!! No way!! what have you ever done for me?? you are never in my life..

At last, back in my home in BTU.. another disaster i must say.. Home is not so sweet anymore..i thought i can at least talk to my dad more and maybe try to get to know Miss J more.. but i guess i know her well enough now.. dad is on the phone with her like all the time..it's more like food already-breakfast, lunch, dinner, supper.. Yucks!! i dont even wanna talk about what they say in their conversation.. just too unacceptable...Ewww...makes people "meremang bulu roma"..
he's even in MYY with her on his off day.. shouldnt he be spending time with his only daughter that only comes home twice a year???

i feel like bursting into tears but luckily i have my bro,Lil J at home with me..He's the only one that makes me feel at home again..he's the one that i'm going home for.. sometimes i would think if the problem is myself and i should change my perception but i just cant.. this reality is just too hard for me.. Guess i'll not be going back home in awhile until im ready..maybe months, years, or mayb never??? i just dont know...................

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10:48 AM

Sunday, April 18, 2010

It's the Final battle tomorrow.. my head feels heavy and i don't seem to be in the mood for more study.. it's the leap that all 74 of us are going to take in other to proceed to the LJM battleground.. Will we be able to make it??? It's not even a question anymore.. the Answer is we MUST!! It's Do or Die...It's Now or Never!!!

2/07 아자!아자!화이팅!

Labels: life, nursing, random

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7:43 PM

Monday, April 5, 2010

Sometimes you spend a lot of the time wasting away by thinking what you should have done in order for something not to happen.. Well, there's nothing we can do to ever change fate.. The flow of life is just like that.. Some may be blessed with all the things that you wanna have.. But little did you know she might be envy of you.. Human are so not satisfied.. That is why people came up with the phrase "If Only" "I wish"..

In the end there's nothing we can do but live life..One step at a time..Maybe we can all find Happiness this way.. by not regretting about the past but be thankful that we have another day to make things better in future..

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7:29 PM

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

This happen simultaneously when i was having "FUN" in Agrotek after the Trials....

My dad got engaged....Yea, he got E.N.G.A.G.E.D.... to a lady whom he's really fond of.. someone that makes him smile after mum's not here..i thought of going back home for the event but he said it's alright since im having exam..plus how am I suppose to tell the tutors the reason of me Balik Kampung?? "Ayah saya nak tunang." I'm gonna be their laughing stock.. BIG TIME~~~ sigh......... anyway, i actually got to see their engagement rings when i went home in Nov..

Simple & Sweet by Lazo Diamonds..

very Bling Bling~~

*got this photo from my bro..dad either forgot or didn't want to send me the engagement pix..

took this during my Balik Kampung..

till now i still cant accept her whole-heartedly..am i being cruel to dad since he finally himself the one after mum?? though he didn't say anything as "she's gonna be ur new mum from now on" but i still feel alienated to her.. there's even a certain feeling of disgust when i think of them..the more i think the more i miss mum... I want dad to be Happy yet i feel sorry for being Angry at the same time.. i can understand that we siblings are leaving him 1 by 1 but he promised never to remarry.. However he did say something about getting a companion before..but~~~~~what should i do... i really wanna wish them my blessings, but~~~~~~ so may BUTs.... when can i ever be ready to accept her???

Labels: life, pix

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11:16 PM

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Making a Comeback to revive this dying blog.. though it has never been very alive before..

Basically nothing much have been going on.. i've been doing nothing apart from eat, study and sleep.. and of course loading myself with caffeine in the morning due to inadequate sleep at nite.. im not staying up because im studying but it just happens.. i guess dad's insomnia finally hit me.. im living an owl life now..*hoot* *hoot* lol~~~~

Finally, Trial Exam's over... not much to be said except for a complete suicide on every paper..

Gruesome revision schedule that the tutors planned just to make sure we passed were in vain..how can we possibly jam-packed everything we studied for the past two and a half years in such a short period!!!!

Results for paper 1 n OSCE are out..Im Lucky to have passed.. Paper 2 & 3 are another 2 killers...almost drop-dead after answering the papers.. writing non-stop for 3 3/4 hours were like hell.. the Painnnnnnnnnnnnn~~~~~~~~ and the feeling of your brain being sucked dry... that was how i felt after coming out of the exam hall..

Anyway, we had an outing to some ULU place called Agrotek in Ulu Langat after the trials to relax ourselves...We really enjoyed the place..too bad it was a bit too short.. only 2days 1 night...

Will be back for more updates with Agrotek pix...

TATA for now.. Gotta get ready for the Finals...^^

Labels: life, nursing, outing, pix

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3:27 PM

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Yoyoyo!!!!!

im back after a long 8weeks of posting...Dude, that was long..

But coming to think of it..time flies so fast this time..i love being in clinical area.. those ppl u meet everyday from all walks of life made me realise dat life is short.. Illness doesnt choose it's victim..no matter if you are rich or poor...

We may not get high pay for wat we do but the simple "Thank You" from the patients when they are discharged really makes my day everytime..

Back to business..going back to class next weeks.. i so dont like the idea of study, stuDy,STUDY!!!!! Gotta be in class from 7.15am-630pm... Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my head's gonna burst from all this tension.. I'd rather stay in posting though i wont be able to have meals and sometimes even no time for toilet round...haha...

Hope time pass soon for me to become an official Staff Nurse..hahahahaha.......

LJM Hwaiting!!!!

Labels: life, nursing, random

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8:46 PM

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Penang Trip~~~

had so much fun n so much food ingested that i got really lazy to narrate the trip..Just let the photographs tell the story..

enjoy~~

this pic looks pro.. thumbs up..hehe

the wishing bell..

it might look messy and u've got only the word diarhea in ur mind but they serve the best asam laksa ever tasted..

stupid rules n regulations on outside drinks by a coffee shop..

Penang Bridge

peanut soup..sweet desert..

Ferringhi~~

On top of the World!!!

oops!!! on top of Penang..hahaha

the busy street of pasar pagi Ayer Keroh

East meets West.. English dining hall in a Chinese residence (Peranakan)

Stairway to Heaven???

loved the atmosphere on tihs balcony..

KABOOM camera!!!!

this is some what the sink~~

the Peranakan residence

dying to see one of this..kinda satisfied though it's just the booth without the real payphone.. will make it to England to see a real living one in future..^^